How long is eternity

How short is eternity for you
How did the forever turn to 6 weeks
You say you loved me
You say you got through
You say you love him
I wish I can believe that
But the love that fueled me
Is now fueling the fire inside me
I call for the power of love
The power that is torturing me now
To get you back to your senses
You told me you didn't forget
Then please stop this madness
The bigest sin
Isn't to withdraw from a mistake
It is to betray your heart
You used to call me my heart
Now you see me rottening
In the flams of darkness
Save your heart
Save truth
Save me
If you love him
Just admit that you never loved me
Love is forever
So either you love me
Or you love him

R.I.P.

I'm officially destroyed,
That was my doing,
But don't blame me for trying.

Today was the last day of hope
Today is the first day in the rest of my life
Tonight I'll sleep hopeless
I wish I can say what I feel
She literally dumped me tonight
She openly said that he is the one
He is the one that she prefers
He is her priority now
And I am
I am nothing
I hope I'll die tonight
I wish for a swift kill
Why am I that stupid
Why do I keep trying
Is it hope
Nahhh
Is it love
Yeah
But it's my love to her
I see that there is no mirror in her
To return me my love
I'll wonder on my face
Till eternity
I may stop to love her someday
But never again I'll love another one
I had my share
I won't suffer again
She was the one
She is the one
And from now on
I will stay a one
A one man show in the battles of life
A TroubledSoul roaming this earth and the next looking for her shadow
For Eliana's perfume and shadow

Caring

Six days till the D Day,
will it be my first solo valentine.

Do you believe in second chances?
Well I don't anymore
Specially in relationships
I tried everything to get her back
I called her on her mobile
I called her home
I tried to arrange a date
I even promised her I'll be her pet for eternity
She have my mobile number
She have my phone number
She has my email
I gave her the address of this blog
And I told her to check every once and a while
Just to see if I'm still breathing
I believe, that if she cared
She would have tried
But she doesn't
She never did
Bombs were going on my home
And she didn't bother
She doesn't know my birthday
For God sake why did you say you love me
Whatever is my crime
Is my punishment just
When we broke up
I wanted you to learn
How hard it is to live without your lover
You said it was hard for you
For a couple of weeks
But what was your solution
To get another one
A better one
Let me tell you how I love you
I would pay any price to see you smile again
I would kill to kiss you one more time
I want to die beside you
I just want to see you asleep beside me
Wet eyes, shaking hands, swollen heart, aching bones
Sleepless nights, dreamless sleep, nightmares
When I'm not with you
That's how I feel
I wish you loved me
But you loved being with me
And now you're learning what is love
With prince charming
I pray that he doesn't hurt you
I hope, wish, pray for your happiness
Goodbye, good night

Who am I

Tonight again I couldn't sleep until I wrote this, I cried for the life I lost for her boyfriend.
I also imagined I saw her 5 years or so from now, living our dreams.

I was walking a few days ago on the marina
Enjoying the nice breeze and the hot summer sun
Many were doing the same some young couples
And a few families, with there kids running freely
I envy those families, then my eyes were fixed
There was this couple a few feet from me
There was a kid running in front of them
And the man was embracing his mate
The woman was leaning on his shoulder
That was very romantic
Then the kid stopped to get some flowers
There I saw that he was a boy
His figure was angelic
Green eyes, blond hair, very pretty face
I could easily have mistaken him for the baby Jesus
I thought to myself, if I married this would have been my kid
Then the woman called the boy
I was choked I could have sweared that I know this voice
The couple arrived to a jeep and opened the door
When the woman turned a lightning struck me
She was my first love she was E
Did she recognize me?
She should, she sweared never to forget
How come she would forget
I wanted to scream it’s me ZouZou
But she looked indifferently to me
As if I was a total stranger
I was like a zombie as I passed by her
She was right I wasn’t ZouZou her love anymore
That man died, I wasn’t the man she sweared to love for eternity
When I was near their jeep the boy entered the car
As I passed her I smelled her special perfume
I was mesmerized, they started there car as if to flee me
I dropped to my knees, there I was in the middle of the street
On my knees I looked up to see her beautiful face in the jeep’s window
As they turned, she looked at me puzzled
All she saw was me
Not ZouZou just another TroubledSoul