Missed calls

What do u think you'll miss after a break up?
Things that you never valued
Like the everyday pasionate kiss
Like the everyday first kiss
Like her genuine skin smell
Like the feeling on your lips after a kiss
Like the wetness in your mouth before a kiss
Like her phone calls, that just wana see if i'm OK
I ask myself every other minute
When did I get this much in love?
Was it when we were together?
Or when we broke up?
I feel that I don't need her anymore
But I need love, passion
I don't need her love anymore
Because no matter how much I love her
My love is and will hit a brick wall
She love's him, prince charming
If she thinks she loved me
And now she loves him
Then God be with her
She doesn't know what love is
She left, she got out of our future
She left the picture

Two brief moments

This weekend I managed to steal her
For two brief moments I succeeded
Two days were my brief moments
For two days, I would hear her whispering
In my ear before I wake up
For two days, I would hear her talking freely
To me, again about her, and her life
For two days, I rarely heard his name
No more SJ, no more them
For two days I remembered how it felt
To hear her say us again
To see her smile for me
To feel her presence beside me
Oh God I thought to myself
If this what you call friendship
I just want to be her friend
But after every dream there's a wake up call
But after every starry night there's a morning
And again I was hit by a small word
A word that brought me back to reality
How high I would climb
How hard I would try
She betrayed us
she loved someone else
She even told me
That she had plans with him for summer
Oh E, sweet E
Don't you know
How deep small words can go
They don't just pierce the heart
They can reach the dreams
And another time
My brief moments
Were shatered like a thrown mirror from the sixth floor
To hit the ground and shatter to a million piece
No matter how hard I try to summon them
All I have are shattered dreams

Free Kareem

I'm sorry but there's something more important that came to my view now, more important than my personal problems.
First I'm sorry that I'm a Middle Eastern, this is the first time I say it but now I'm sure of it.
When I was surfing a bit on the web, I stumbled on a strange title: "A blogger has been sentenced to three years for 'insulting' Islam and one year for 'insulting' President Mubarak".
Oh my god, not long ago, we heard people here in Lebanon swearing and cursing the Christ and the Cross, everyday we see people burning the star of David in Egypt, isn't Judaism a respected religion in Egypt.
I don't blame Islam, I blame Muslims, fanatics and stupids.
Do you call this respect: "Al Azhar allow enrolment of Coptic students under the condition that they memorise the Qur’an", this is stupid, shallow and lame propaganda, do you think the "Holy Qur'an" needs propaganda?
What do you think the lowest level of human beings would say? let me give you a hint: "I was hoping that he would get a harsher sentence because he presented to the world a bad image of Egypt. There are things that one should not talk about, like religion and politics. He should have got a 10-year sentence", does he believes what he is saying?

Lost Hope

One of many lost
One of my lost feelings
Hope is that feeling
What should I look for?
Meeting another girl?
How should I do that?
Whenever I look to a girl
I feel it's treason
For 3.5 years I was loyal
I couldn't even look to any other
How can I start now?
Can I start all over again?
Do I have to?
When you love someone
You can't pass that feeling
And move forward
Forward where?
I only have her in front of me
Forward where?
My future is drawn by our dreams
Forward where?
An this thought is still in my mind
The thought that this is a phase
That this is a test
A hard test
But we will pass
How can you pass?
When she tells you that
She never loved you
How can you pass?
When she tells you that
She loves her mate

Why not?

Am I depressed or desperate
After my previous knee problems
Today began my right arm
I can barely move it
And it's hurting me like hell
My head is buzzing with one question
Why not?
Why shouldn't I kill myself
The best thing that happened to me is dying
Even my memories can't compensate the loss
My memories are now a burning poison
And what do you think was the killer blow
She took my memories from me
She took the love within my heart from me
She told me tonight the lying truth
That she never loved me
Why Not?
My professional career is collapsing
Because all I think of is getting her back
All I can think of is I will get her back
That's what love is all about
Only death will get us apart
So why can't we be back?
If that wasn't love, what was it?
A big lie, was my life a big lie
But I swear, only death will separate us
I won't kill SJ, because it will turn him into a martyr
I won't kill E, because I love her more than anything else
I will kill myself, because I hate myself

Sin or Not

Every time God create a man
He takes a handful of soil
And as if he is kissing the unborn body
He blows life to the ashes
Then he puts his hand in the new born
And pump his small heart
Before removing his hand
He takes one of his ribs
And the child cries of pain and loss
Hastily God reassures him
Hush hush sweet soul
For this rib is yours
For you will breath to get it back
For you will breath her air
For she will breath yours
For you will feel her heart beat
For she will feel yours
In the divine moments of love
Then he gave life to the rib
And sent them each in it's path
He blessed them both and said
I separated you, but when it's time
You will be reunited
When the devil saw that the divine plan is almost fulfilled
He refused to accept his defeat
He took a handful of dirt
And blew in it fire and the semi-devil was born
The reborn devil didn't cry
But looked to his father with no goal
The devil told his child
I will deliver you from life's troubles
But claim me one soul
Cause him pain
Cause him agony
Make him a TroubledSoul
The son of the devil did as his father told him
He turned the angelic life
To a big lie
He turned truth
To a fake life
He turned the fiancés
To lost chances
Killing gods creations is a sin
But is it the same with SJ?