What if?

This was the first thing I wrote,
I wrote it after she told me she has strong feelings for her new boyfriend,
One month after we officialy broke up.

What if your competent is prince charming?
What if your ex is your only love?
What if your love is just a memory for her?
What if you gained everything and lost her?
What if everything you hated are now your best memories?
Why is it the sweetest word for you now isn't love?
Why is it the sweetest word for you now is suicide?
Why is that word the only word rebounding now in my lonelyness?
Why is that word my only goal?
Rest in peace dear soul for you have fulfilled your goal.
You have loved and you have been loved.